A look back at my sixteen year old self.

Five years ago, I had just broken up with my ex, and completed my GCSE’s. I made a lot of new friends that Summer, and also ended up in a lot of online arguments with people over mine and my friends physical appearance.

I found this on a website I used to use, as a diary entry, and this made me laugh… The things you say when you’re young…

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Just because I wear glasses, doesnt mean I’m not comfortable with my looks. I’m not the best or worst looking person in the world and on my bad days, I look a right state but at other times, I can look reasonably ok.

I don’t smoke. Yes I used to. I used fags as a way to relieve stress due to exams. Basically I’m never going to smoke again.

Yes I do drink..but only occasionally and not excessively. I dont particularly want to be puking my guts up all night long.

I don’t do drugs and I never will. Reasons why.

I wont take people insulting my mates easily. Or for that matter people FAKING my mates. I don’t care what shit you send back to me, I have a thick skin. It’s developed over the years.

I’m so over guys that make it seem as if the worlds your oyster when your going out and when you break up, you realise just how manipulative they can be.

You can call me ugly.. I dont care
You can call me fat,.. I dont care
You can call me anorexic…I dont care
You can call me retard, loser, freak, greebo, goth, chav, emo, skater, grunger, whatever..I dont care
You can call me a druggie, suckup, wino, fag, junkie, slut, bitch, tart, slag, whatever … I dont care

But don’t ever big yourself up when you’re “trying” to put me down. It aint big , it aint clever, you look like a fool, and it just looks pathetic. I dont care what you small minded cretins, you arrogant morons, you pathetic little twats have to say.
When you call my mates slags think about what your saying. The majority of my friends list are virgins. And you, the person saying this shit, ain’t.

So instead of calling them slags and being hypocritical, why dont you continue being what you love to call everyone else. As for you fakers, I see why you fake. Cause you dont want people to see your ugly mugs!

For the last time, I’m sick and fed up of pathetic small minded prats who think that everyone adores them. You’re wrong.

Peace

xx

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While most of these points still stands, a few of them I completely destroyed over the next couple of years, especially when I turned eighteen, and started hanging around with some unsavoury characters, to say the least. I’m not proud of some of the things I did, but I did them – and they’re my past, I can’t change that.

I just thought it was funny to see the naivety I had as a sixteen year old, and how much that would change over the next couple of years.

Have any of you girls recently stumbled across long forgotten online entries that make you cringe a little inside?

Feel free to share.

For now,

xo